My Happiness Project

by Queen Bee on 12/26/2012

Emptiness & Happiness

A year and a half ago, I bought the book The Happiness Project: Or, Why I Spent a Year Trying to Sing in the Morning, Clean My Closets, Fight Right, Read Aristotle, and Generally Have More Fun and then I just quickly abandoned it on a cluttered shelf. At the time that I bought it, the “have more fun” in the title caught my attention and influenced my commitment to having a year of fun before having a child. I certainly didn’t think that I had a problem with being happy so I quickly forgot about reading the book.

Tonight as the clock ticks closer to the end of Christmas, I began to think about happiness once again. As I sit and reflect on my Christmas, it has occurred to me a few times over the past couple of days that I have never had such a happy or peaceful Christmas since I was a small child. Every year my holidays are marked with turmoil, drama and dysfunction, but this year was different. This Christmas was peaceful and relaxing. After another dysfunctional holiday this past Thanksgiving, I officially declared a drama and negativity free Christmas. And I succeeded in having one.

This evening as I settled in for the night, I came upon The Happiness Project book and jumped right into the first two chapters. In the past self-help books have never really held my attention. And, as I began to read, I thought, This book certainly isn’t for me. I am happy. I make a pretty decent living at work. In only two years all of my bills will be paid off, including my home and my student loans. I am in a loving relationship. I generally am pretty happy with my life. But, the more and more I thought about it, a nagging discontent persisted and I began to wonder if I’m as happy as I really think that I am.

The truth is that for the past year or so I have felt as if I am in a state of disequilibrium. I wouldn’t classify it as being unhappy per se, but I feel uncomfortable. I feel like I am going through some sort of growing pains and it is causing me a little discomfort. What used to make me happy or catch my attention sometimes irritates me or causes me stress. My priorities in life are changing and certain things just aren’t that important to me anymore, while things that have never been important are now more important to me than ever. And all these changes are freaking me the hell out.

I’ve decided to give the book a try, and even start a happiness project of my own. It certainly never killed anyone to try to be more happy, centered and at peace with their life, right? Perhaps by focusing on happiness, I will finally be able to figure out if I am really unhappy with work or if I’m just burned out. Maybe I will stop being so freaked out about having children and finally take the leap to getting pregnant. Or perhaps I will finally be able to have the discipline to lose all the weight that I need to lose in order to be healthy. There is no time like the present to start a happiness project for myself-just in time for the new year!

Stay tuned for my happiness goals!

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beri December 27, 2012 at 1:24 am

i seem to have lost my way in the area of happiness……i also find loneliness an issue…..i shared a link from depak chopra and i think i will follow his advice…..

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